Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Helplessness

I admit being a hypocrite, acting something and secretly believing something else. Or why else would I be feeling the guilt?

How much ever do I try to act not to be bothered, or not giving a damn to what the implications of my act would be, I still can't care any less for a few special. And I know they too, do care, though not the same... worst being, even that small bit is lost everytime I act foolish.

But I am helpless.. only wishing I someday learn to control my anger. I pity myself.

8 comments:

NaReN said...

Same Pinch dude ;-)

Keshav said...

Then you must be knowing the misreble feel you get when you behave exactly opposite to what you intended, and still your ego makes you act as if you don't care!

!!~~S~m~i~l~e~~!! said...

u just spoke my words dude!!! i was never like this b4, off late i have lost lotsa patience and trust me, its causing lotsa stress on me, but r we really helpless??!!!

Keshav said...

I dont really know. i have been trying for ages now... everything goes fine for a few weeks or months.. and then suddenly something silly or very unexpected ticks me off!

But I never intend doing it.

Srinivas said...

venting out anger is good. trust me. and for me it does not matter anymore who is at the receiving end. as long as i know i'm responsible enough for my actions, i'm fine. try my advice.

NaReN said...

Yesss.. No use feeling miserable.. I know one cant help but feel so.. but its good to believe in urself.. be responsible and "Get Over It" ASAP :)

Blossom said...

Even I lose my temper often, and I hurt others, though it was not the intention.. repenting later wont help, damage is done. My friends and family know I am like this, so they forgive me each time... abt the rest, I dont care at all :)

Keshav said...

The problem is my so called close friends don't understand this.. and why should they?

So I have stopped being in touch.